On the Precipice of Big Time

The title of this is from an obscure Counting Crows song, Shallow Days. I just looked through the last few years of the blog for when I referred back to this quote…and I see that the last time I felt this way something phenomenal came to me. However, what I sought and found then (and I was surprisingly specific), is completely different than what I want now. My whole approach is different. I’m a different person than I was in May/June of 2001. That part of me still exists, but it’s not where I want to be–not now.Back then I talked of being a Renaissance Man. I referred to how when a relationship had ended, the majority of my life continued because I had so many other interests. I talked about how great it was to have gone places with guitar, dance, and my close friends. Diversity was my answer to life, and I was getting good at a variety of things. At the same time, I knew something big was coming in my personal life, and I wanted it so badly. I learned a lot from what came, but kept my feet wet in other areas. Perhaps I succeeded at balance.

Now, again, I’m on the precipice of something perhaps greater than myself. I see possibilities in my career that I’d never pictured before. I see a chance to make a greater difference, and to meet phenomenal people along the way. There is a path that’s just beginning to come clear to me. And I want to travel it.

This time I don’t seek balance. I’ve been immensely lucky to have so many wonderful things going on, to have had personal and professional opportunities that came so simply. But now I want to recreate an identity. I want to look to the future and see it in my reach. I want to put other goals aside and move onward. Focus, albeit a bit monomaniacal perhaps, is what I seek.

Along with that, fortunately or unfortunately, means that there will be some changes to this website. It’s from a time when I wanted to share so much with everyone, and let them get a deeper view into the way my mind worked. This site has grown to be a resource to a small community, and it has helped me to get to know people I never would have come across. It’s also made some people’s lives a little easier.

I still want to write and reflect on life’s lessons. Some other things on this site may come down, however. I don’t really know… But I want to warn and excite you that I’m onto something new, something better. Thank you for understanding, and for sharing the inception of this journey.