Don’t Mess with the Motivation

My writing here has really gone downhill, ever since the beginning of the summertime. There are just less people in my life that either amuse or disappoint me. Sure, I could go on about the things I’ve learned with regards to dance. I could take a stance on some of the controversial stuff in the media. But that’s simple. And it gets old after a little while. I want to write about the things that apply to everyday life, can have an impact on most people, and are worth taking five minutes out of your day to read.

The entry I wrote earlier today was okay. It wasn’t great. But then again, I wrote knowing that I probably shouldn’t be writing it and making sure that I didn’t completely attack the person to whom I was referring in it. Nonetheless, she did inspire me to write it. I haven’t been “inspired” in quite a while. I need that motivation. On the one hand I can’t sit still right now, on the other it feels good to be thinking…

And the more I think about writing the less interested I am in technology. This mode of thought is dangerous: I’m not gonna make much of a living writing, though I.T. certainly pays the bills. But I can’t overlook what I love. I just have to figure out how good I am at it, and what I want to write about.

This has been interesting day. I went from regretting my strong stance in the conversation last night to being glad that there are still things I get worked up about. And after all, it’s nice sometimes to test your morals and come out as the good guy. But there’s still a lot left unsettled. I don’t know, it just feels good to be writing again. But I just hope I didn’t piss off my motivation in the process. People like her don’t come around every day…