Not Ready Yet, but…

Not much time to write, but I went to a wedding today and that’s definitely been on my mind. Wow… marriage. Part of me is a kid, and the other part is going into the real world just 12 months from now. So I don’t know what to make of people that have the biggest decision of their life already made. And not only that, what about kids? I mention this because the friend whose wedding I attended has a 6 month old girl, Ruby. I want kids; I do. I want kids, and I want to be a kid.

In the last few weeks I’ve talked to so many of my friends about their little kids. Rich’s (25) little boy, Rich, is almost 3. Joanna’s (20) little girl, Ruby, who I already mentioned. And Mike (28), who I met today, has a little boy of 2.5. The thing my friends all share is fascination and awe… and an understanding that I’ll never have until I myself am a parent.

Now I’m not gonna run off and become a parent anytime soon. I’m sorta lacking a person to run off with, anyways. But even though I’m not ready, it’s still on my mind. It’s still a goal someday. My first cousin is getting married next June, but there’s no pressure for me. I have lots of life experiences to live, in the mean time.