Confrontation

I have this really awful habit of not repressing my feelings when people don’t respond to me. Nothing gets to me more than silence, especially when I’m being serious. There’s that quote, it’s something to the effect of “I regret a lot of the things I’ve said, but never my silence.” I disagree. There are times when I should’ve held my tongue, but I still think a better quote would be “The only thing I regret more than the things I failed (to say right) are the things I never tried (to say at all)”

Hate me, love me, be my friend… but don’t be indifferent. If you don’t have something to contribute then you’re not serving a purpose; you’re just wasting air. This brings to mind an email I sent out last summer, it started like this:

Sometimes I think I’d love someone for hating me and making a fool out of me, if they could prove their point and defeat me. The only problem with that is that I’d love them and they’d hate me and no one would understand that interest of mine. Well, ‘cept maybe you.

I had gotten angry at her over something I shouldn’t have. And she called me on it. People are real and have real emotions. If I say something intended to hurt, then it will. And it did. She reacted and I respect her for that.

But some people don’t stick up for themselves. They run away or close down when things get messy. People shouldn’t always be nice, because there’s a time when niceness is just a lie. There’s a time to speak the difficult truth, and the other has to respond. No one gains from silence, least of all the person being hurt.

Sorry to vent all this, but I stand by the words that I said earlier tonight. It’s not my fault if people just want to accept and run away. The real world isn’t going anywhere, and neither are people’s problems. Some of us hate confrontation and truth, but if you don’t do or say anything then your thoughts aren’t worth a dime. Sorry to yell, but grown-ups take chances and use words. Goodnight.