Archive for January, 2001

• 1.31.01 "Why I Dance" is posted in Dance, Reflections

There are times when I’ve doubted my motives. Am I dancing solely to meet people? Am I writing for other’s attention? Is all of this just to prove myself? The answers to all these questions are yes and no. But hear me out. (more…)

• 1.30.01 "Too Much to Do" is posted in Rant

I’m keeping this short because I have so much to do right now. Today was my first day of classes and I feel like venting. How on earth is it possible to do everything that you want to do? As I wrote just a few weeks ago, it seems like so many people have a ton of drive in one particular area… I wish I had just one. I remember when I was at my last model UN conference and I was like, “I’m going to go hard core and read books about the UN over break and…” But in two weeks I’ll be surrounded by people that did just that while I spent my break dancing and working. I just walked out of my lounge where Jack and Tim were jamming on the guitar. How on earth am I ever going to get to the point where they are? And I watch people on the dance floor, especially in ballroom. Yeah, I’m improving. But it just takes so friekin’ long… (more…)

• 1.28.01 "Shifting Friends" is posted in Friendship, Reflections

Sometimes it seems like when I get more involved in one group of friends then not only is it easy to neglect other groups, but it feels right. It’s like, not only is the old group less of my life, but the little contact I have with it doesn’t have to be covered in that polite front we often work hard to maintain. I don’t know that this neglect is a good thing, but it’s a stage I’ve hit many times. It’s like, “you’re no longer part of my life, I don’t need to pretend to agree with you guys.” And I suppose part of it is seeing how much they’ll try to hold onto you. If they don’t put up a fight, are they worth it? (more…)